Once A Cheater...By His Fragile Kiss & Bela Lugosi

[Kezzie]

[[Full title:: Once a cheater....always a cheater]]

-Chapter One-

“Fuck this!” Amanda ran out of the backroom sobbing, She was sitting on the ground crying. “Whats wrong, Amanda?” Joel questioned. “WHY DON’T YOU ASK PAUL!” She yelled. Then she helped herself up with a little struggle. Amanda ran out of the venue onto the bus. Benji, Billy, and Chris were outside signing autographs. “Manda…?” Benji chased after her. When he got on the bus she was in back crying hysterically, She didn’t care who saw, or who questioned, She just laid there crying.

Joel opened the door to the backroom in the venue, Just as Amanda did before she ran out crying. “Paul, wtf man!?” Joel stared in disbelief of what he was seeing. Paul laying in bed with someone who wasn’t his wife. He was in bed with one of the groupies the followed the band.

“Ever hear of knocking?” Paul said in a frustrated way. “Yeah, but I wasn’t about to when your 7 month pregnant wife just ran out crying.” Joel was getting angry, The groupie didn’t say anything. She just got dressed and left. “How the hell could you do that to her?” he yelled. Paul got up and left, Not answering Joel.

“Why would he do that!?” Amanda sobbed, Her worst nightmare just came up and bit her in the ass. “I don’t kno.” Benji was rubbing her stomach, Trying to comfort her. She just cried more, Leaning on Benji for some emotional support. “It’ll be ok” He whispered in her ear then kissed her on the forehead.

[Kezzie]

-Chapter Two-

That night Amanda spent the night in back, alone. The guys would check on her sometimes but she wouldn’t let Paul go anywhere near her. “Damn Paul, That’s your wife…The woman whose having your baby and you go and do that.” Joel was still in disbelief. The rest of the guys couldn’t believe it. “Would any of you let me explain!?” Paul snapped. He was angrier then ever. No one will hear me out! Manda, sick of the yelling came out from the back. “I’m going out…” She walked out of the bus and started walking, She didn’t kno where to but she was thankful to be out of the bus.

When she started walking, Suddenly a car drove past her. “Hey” Said a voice from in the car. “Oh Hey.” She said. She was still walking. “Want a ride?” They asked. “No actually, Tony, I’m going for a walk. The guys are back in the bus if you want to go see them.” She didn’t want to socialize and she was trying to get him to take a hint. “Okey Dokey” He cheerfully said driving away.

“YOU DID WHAT!?” Tony yelled. His face went pale and he started yelling at Paul for his stupidity. “She loves you!! And this is how you repay her!” Suddenly Joel’s cell rang. “Hello.” He said in a low key voice. “What…” His face started to look worried, Joining Tony’s as a light pale. “I’ll be right there” He then hung up. “Whats wrong bro?” Benji said. “Its Manda…” They all looked at him like he had 20 heads. “Shes in the ER” Billy then started up the bus and they headed towards the hospital.

[Kezzie]

-Chapter Three-

The guys ran thru the hospital, Trying to find out where there friend was. “Excuse me sir, can I help you find someone?” A nurse kindly asked Joel. “Yes, Yes…God.” Joel wasn’t sure of what he was saying so Tony then took over. “Hi…Um, Yeah. We’re trying to find our friend Amanda, She came in about a half hour ago in an ambulance going to the emergency room.” He said. “Okay, Follow me.” The group consisting of Joel, Benji, Billy, and Tony, Then followed the nurse into Amanda’s room. “Lordy…” Billy said to the site of Amanda lying there unconscious. “She was hit by a car, Walking down the street.” The nurse said. “Is she going to be ok?” Benji asked. “Amanda is still unconscious, but she'll be fine by tomorrow. However, she was pregnant, and I'm sorry to say that the baby didn't make it” The nurse sadly broke the bad news to the group.

“Do you think shes ok?” Paul asked Chris. They were down in the bus. Amanda didn’t want to see Paul and he thought even if she were in the hospital she wouldn’t want to. “Well she’s at the hospital Paul. Something’s obviously wrong.” Chris felt mean but he was angry with Paul. “What if something happened to the baby!?” Paul was getting himself more worried. He still loved Amanda. “I’m sure the baby is fine.” Chris assured him. “I hope…” Paul sounded depressed, And upset with himself.

“What do you mean the baby didn’t make it?” Joel had no clue what to say except to ask why. “The cars impact was to strong. It hit her directly in the abdomen.” The nurse explained. “I’m very sorry sir.” She said. “I am too” Benji said under his breathe. “I need to speak with the father. That wouldn’t be any of you, Would it?” She walked over to Amanda to give her more IV’s. “Um, no…You see, Last night Amanda and Paul. Paul being her husband. Well they got into a fight and Amanda won’t speak to him.” Joel explained. “I see, Well I need to speak to him. Is he around?” She wouldn’t take no for an answer. “Yeah, He’s down in the bus.” Billy said. “Would you like me to go get him?” he asked. “Yes please.”<br>
“Paul…?, Paul!?” Billy yelled as he got on the bus. “What!? Whats going on!?” Chris rudely awoken. “Where’s Paul?” Billed asked. “Backroom.” Chris said, “Whats wrong with Manda?” he asked. “A car hit her when she was on that walk, Hit her abdomen. The baby didn’t make it.” Billy shamefully whispered. “Are you going to tell Paul?” Chris was then wide awaken. “Yeah, The nurse wants to speak to the father so I came to get him.” They still whispered. “Why are you whispering?” Paul walked out from the back, He was very suspicious. “No reason.” Chris said trying to fall back asleep. “Paul, I need you to come with me buddy.” Billy then grabbed his sleeve and went to pull him to Amanda’s room. ‘Whats going on?” Paul asked in a panic. He started getting more and more scared. By the time he got up to Amanda’s room he was shaking, And his heart was pounding. He had no idea what was going to happen next.

[Kezzie]

-Chapter Three-

The guys ran thru the hospital, Trying to find out where there friend was. “Excuse me sir, can I help you find someone?” A nurse kindly asked Joel. “Yes, Yes…God.” Joel wasn’t sure of what he was saying so Tony then took over. “Hi…Um, Yeah. We’re trying to find our friend Amanda, She came in about a half hour ago in an ambulance going to the emergency room.” He said. “Okay, Follow me.” The group consisting of Joel, Benji, Billy, and Tony, Then followed the nurse into Amanda’s room. “Lordy…” Billy said to the site of Amanda lying there unconscious. “She was hit by a car, Walking down the street.” The nurse said. “Is she going to be ok?” Benji asked. “Amanda is still unconscious, but she'll be fine by tomorrow. However, she was pregnant, and I'm sorry to say that the baby didn't make it” The nurse sadly broke the bad news to the group.

“Do you think shes ok?” Paul asked Chris. They were down in the bus. Amanda didn’t want to see Paul and he thought even if she were in the hospital she wouldn’t want to. “Well she’s at the hospital Paul. Something’s obviously wrong.” Chris felt mean but he was angry with Paul. “What if something happened to the baby!?” Paul was getting himself more worried. He still loved Amanda. “I’m sure the baby is fine.” Chris assured him. “I hope…” Paul sounded depressed, And upset with himself.

“What do you mean the baby didn’t make it?” Joel had no clue what to say except to ask why. “The cars impact was to strong. It hit her directly in the abdomen.” The nurse explained. “I’m very sorry sir.” She said. “I am too” Benji said under his breathe. “I need to speak with the father. That wouldn’t be any of you, Would it?” She walked over to Amanda to give her more IV’s. “Um, no…You see, Last night Amanda and Paul. Paul being her husband. Well they got into a fight and Amanda won’t speak to him.” Joel explained. “I see, Well I need to speak to him. Is he around?” She wouldn’t take no for an answer. “Yeah, He’s down in the bus.” Billy said. “Would you like me to go get him?” he asked. “Yes please.”<br>
“Paul…?, Paul!?” Billy yelled as he got on the bus. “What!? Whats going on!?” Chris rudely awoken. “Where’s Paul?” Billed asked. “Backroom.” Chris said, “Whats wrong with Manda?” he asked. “A car hit her when she was on that walk, Hit her abdomen. The baby didn’t make it.” Billy shamefully whispered. “Are you going to tell Paul?” Chris was then wide awaken. “Yeah, The nurse wants to speak to the father so I came to get him.” They still whispered. “Why are you whispering?” Paul walked out from the back, He was very suspicious. “No reason.” Chris said trying to fall back asleep. “Paul, I need you to come with me buddy.” Billy then grabbed his sleeve and went to pull him to Amanda’s room. ‘Whats going on?” Paul asked in a panic. He started getting more and more scared. By the time he got up to Amanda’s room he was shaking, And his heart was pounding. He had no idea what was going to happen next.

[Kezzie]

-Chapter Three-

The guys ran thru the hospital, Trying to find out where there friend was. “Excuse me sir, can I help you find someone?” A nurse kindly asked Joel. “Yes, Yes…God.” Joel wasn’t sure of what he was saying so Tony then took over. “Hi…Um, Yeah. We’re trying to find our friend Amanda, She came in about a half hour ago in an ambulance going to the emergency room.” He said. “Okay, Follow me.” The group consisting of Joel, Benji, Billy, and Tony, Then followed the nurse into Amanda’s room. “Lordy…” Billy said to the site of Amanda lying there unconscious. “She was hit by a car, Walking down the street.” The nurse said. “Is she going to be ok?” Benji asked. “Amanda is still unconscious, but she'll be fine by tomorrow. However, she was pregnant, and I'm sorry to say that the baby didn't make it” The nurse sadly broke the bad news to the group.

“Do you think shes ok?” Paul asked Chris. They were down in the bus. Amanda didn’t want to see Paul and he thought even if she were in the hospital she wouldn’t want to. “Well she’s at the hospital Paul. Something’s obviously wrong.” Chris felt mean but he was angry with Paul. “What if something happened to the baby!?” Paul was getting himself more worried. He still loved Amanda. “I’m sure the baby is fine.” Chris assured him. “I hope…” Paul sounded depressed, And upset with himself.

“What do you mean the baby didn’t make it?” Joel had no clue what to say except to ask why. “The cars impact was to strong. It hit her directly in the abdomen.” The nurse explained. “I’m very sorry sir.” She said. “I am too” Benji said under his breathe. “I need to speak with the father. That wouldn’t be any of you, Would it?” She walked over to Amanda to give her more IV’s. “Um, no…You see, Last night Amanda and Paul. Paul being her husband. Well they got into a fight and Amanda won’t speak to him.” Joel explained. “I see, Well I need to speak to him. Is he around?” She wouldn’t take no for an answer. “Yeah, He’s down in the bus.” Billy said. “Would you like me to go get him?” he asked. “Yes please.”<br>
“Paul…?, Paul!?” Billy yelled as he got on the bus. “What!? Whats going on!?” Chris rudely awoken. “Where’s Paul?” Billed asked. “Backroom.” Chris said, “Whats wrong with Manda?” he asked. “A car hit her when she was on that walk, Hit her abdomen. The baby didn’t make it.” Billy shamefully whispered. “Are you going to tell Paul?” Chris was then wide awaken. “Yeah, The nurse wants to speak to the father so I came to get him.” They still whispered. “Why are you whispering?” Paul walked out from the back, He was very suspicious. “No reason.” Chris said trying to fall back asleep. “Paul, I need you to come with me buddy.” Billy then grabbed his sleeve and went to pull him to Amanda’s room. ‘Whats going on?” Paul asked in a panic. He started getting more and more scared. By the time he got up to Amanda’s room he was shaking, And his heart was pounding. He had no idea what was going to happen next.

[Kezzie]

-Chapter Three-

The guys ran thru the hospital, Trying to find out where there friend was. “Excuse me sir, can I help you find someone?” A nurse kindly asked Joel. “Yes, Yes…God.” Joel wasn’t sure of what he was saying so Tony then took over. “Hi…Um, Yeah. We’re trying to find our friend Amanda, She came in about a half hour ago in an ambulance going to the emergency room.” He said. “Okay, Follow me.” The group consisting of Joel, Benji, Billy, and Tony, Then followed the nurse into Amanda’s room. “Lordy…” Billy said to the site of Amanda lying there unconscious. “She was hit by a car, Walking down the street.” The nurse said. “Is she going to be ok?” Benji asked. “Amanda is still unconscious, but she'll be fine by tomorrow. However, she was pregnant, and I'm sorry to say that the baby didn't make it” The nurse sadly broke the bad news to the group.

“Do you think shes ok?” Paul asked Chris. They were down in the bus. Amanda didn’t want to see Paul and he thought even if she were in the hospital she wouldn’t want to. “Well she’s at the hospital Paul. Something’s obviously wrong.” Chris felt mean but he was angry with Paul. “What if something happened to the baby!?” Paul was getting himself more worried. He still loved Amanda. “I’m sure the baby is fine.” Chris assured him. “I hope…” Paul sounded depressed, And upset with himself.

“What do you mean the baby didn’t make it?” Joel had no clue what to say except to ask why. “The cars impact was to strong. It hit her directly in the abdomen.” The nurse explained. “I’m very sorry sir.” She said. “I am too” Benji said under his breathe. “I need to speak with the father. That wouldn’t be any of you, Would it?” She walked over to Amanda to give her more IV’s. “Um, no…You see, Last night Amanda and Paul. Paul being her husband. Well they got into a fight and Amanda won’t speak to him.” Joel explained. “I see, Well I need to speak to him. Is he around?” She wouldn’t take no for an answer. “Yeah, He’s down in the bus.” Billy said. “Would you like me to go get him?” he asked. “Yes please.”<br>
“Paul…?, Paul!?” Billy yelled as he got on the bus. “What!? Whats going on!?” Chris rudely awoken. “Where’s Paul?” Billed asked. “Backroom.” Chris said, “Whats wrong with Manda?” he asked. “A car hit her when she was on that walk, Hit her abdomen. The baby didn’t make it.” Billy shamefully whispered. “Are you going to tell Paul?” Chris was then wide awaken. “Yeah, The nurse wants to speak to the father so I came to get him.” They still whispered. “Why are you whispering?” Paul walked out from the back, He was very suspicious. “No reason.” Chris said trying to fall back asleep. “Paul, I need you to come with me buddy.” Billy then grabbed his sleeve and went to pull him to Amanda’s room. ‘Whats going on?” Paul asked in a panic. He started getting more and more scared. By the time he got up to Amanda’s room he was shaking, And his heart was pounding. He had no idea what was going to happen next.

[Kezzie]

-Chapter Four-

“No…” Paul was in tears. His whole world was crashing down on him. “Paul its gunna be ok.” Joel patted him on the back and reassured him. “That’s fucking easy for you Joel!” He started raising his voice. At this time all of the band, and Tony were in the room. “You didn’t just cheat on your wife, THEN GET HER SO UPSET SHE LEFT AND HAPPEN TO GET HIT BY A CAR AND LOSE THE CHILD YOU HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR, FOR 7 MONTHS!” Paul was crying, No one new what to say. “I’ll gie you sometime alone. Amanda should be waking up soon.” The nurse then left. The guys left with her and left Paul with his wife.

[Kezzie]

-Chapter 5-

Paul rapped on the door gingerly.
"Manda?" He half whispered. Manda opened her eyes a sliver. She had never had so much hatred for an individual all her life...and she didnt think it would be towards the one man she loved most. She quickly shut her yees and faked sleeping as Paul leaned on the side of the door and watched her sleep.
Kiri came up right behind Paul and tapped his shoulder.
"Paul, maybe this isn't the greatest time to visit Manda," she whispered in his ear. Paul stopped looking at Manda and looked at Kiri. "I know Kir...but I just want to be with her," He said. Kiri folded her arms across her chest and gave him a death stare. "Paul you should have said that before you got in bed with the slut," Kiri said in a flat voice. "Ouch..." Paul said with a hurt expression on his face.
They were whispering loud enough for Manda to hear. She opened her eyes, and the first thing she did was put her hand on her now deflated stomach. "Mmmmmffmmm..." Manda moaned groggily.
Kiri and Paul quickly turned their gaze at each other to Manda. Paul quickly rushed to her side and grabbed a chair.
"Morning sunshine," Paul said with a smirk. Manda turned her head to face him. She slowly squinted her eyes and began to cry. "I hate you," Manda said under her breath; loud enough for Paul to hear. He leaned back and stared at her with awe. "N-no you don't," He stammered. Manda felt hot tears run down her face. "Yes I do!" She said in a meek, squeaky voice. Paul got up from his chair and slowly walked out the door. Kiri was watching the whole scene from the doorway, and was immediately pushed to the side by Paul so he can leave. Kiri put her foot out and let him trip over it. "Kiri what the fuck man!? Paul screamed. Kiri yelled even louder, "Stay where the fuck you are! Get back here and talk to your goddamned wife you asshole! YOU FUCKING COWARD!" Kiri shouted at him, huffing and puffing. Paul ran his hand through his blonde spiked hair. He shuffled his way inside the room.
Kiri slammed the door on the two as she walked out of the hospital to call her own husband.
« Last Edit: Aug 24th, 2004, 7:00pm by Bela x Lugosi » <br>

[Kezzie]

-Chapter Six-

"I know you're in the middle of an interview but I need some backup!" Kiri said.
A long pause as Kiri held a palm to her free ear to hear what Benji was saying.
"No no no no, she doesnt have the strength to hurt him. Benj she looks terrible...and you're one of her best friends. Benji she needs you!" Kiri complained.
"How long will it take...No, no she isnt drugged she's wide awake and harmless I promise," Kiri comforted Benji.
"Yay thank you I love you!"
click.
Kiri rushed back inside.

__Manda's Story__

"Manda I promise I'll make it up to you. I swear!" Paul pleaded with her.
"No Paul. I don't even know who the hell you are anymore. Where the hell did my Paulie go?" Manda questioned through a fitful of tears.
"I'm right here! I always have---"
"No Paul. You've changed so much ever since I got pregnant. So what are you going to do now that I have no baby? Huh? Find another hobag?" Manda said in a shaky voice. Paul sat stupidly in his chair. "I don't know Manda. I love you so much. I wouldnt do anything to hurt you...I just needed some space," Paul said, reaching to grab Manda's hand. Manda was too weak to force her hand out of his grasp, so instead she stared into his eyes and cried. Those dark brown eyes that always made her feel happy again. Paul leaned down and kissed her hand, and let it go. Manda slowly pulled her hand to her chest. "Just leave me alone," she said finally. "Never," Paul said in a harsh tone. "I'm not leaving this spot until you tell me you love me," He said. Manda stared harder at him. She stared right through him, off in her own world. "I did," Manda replied finally. Paul got up and cupped her face in his hands and kissed her roughly. Manda moved her head side to side, but this only made Paul grab onto her dark brown hair. "Stop!" She tried to mumble. Paul slid his tongue in when Kiri burst through the room. Manda calmed herself and acted like she expected it to happen.
Kiri, catching on to this, smiled and pushed Paul away to hug Manda. "I knew this would happen!" Kiri said cheerily. Paul stared down at Manda and mouthed, "It's not over," and walked out the door without a word.

__Kiris Story__

Kiri didnt think this would happen the same night. She was mad at Paul, yet pleased with Manda with her final decision. As she hugged Manda close, she couldnt help but feel Manda shaking. Kiri pulled back and smiled. "Benji will be here any minute!" Kiri beamed. Manda forced a smile. "Yeah...okay...I like Benji...Benji will make me happier...he always does..." Manda said through clenched teeth. Kiri gave her a quizzical look until she felt someone wrap their arms around her stomach and pull her off of Manda. "Kiriiiiiiiiii," Benji cooed in her ear. Kiri turned her head to kiss his lips. "Benjiiiiiiii," Kirie cooed back. Manda rolled her eyes.
"Aren't you two just the Sid and Nancy of the new millenium?" Manda said. She smiled meekly. Kiri wrapped her arms around Benjis neck as Benji turned to smile at a weak Manda. "Oh yes!" He said, showing off his white, white teeth. Kiri smiled and buried her face into his neck.


__Manda's Story__

Whenever Manda looked at Kiri and Benji, 'Broken' played over and over in her head. She could just imagine them doing a duet like that.

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain; Awayyy..

Manda sang silently. She loved how they were inspeparable; Paul and her used to be like that. Before Manda got pregnant.

__Flashback__
She remembered their wedding day, when the photographer asked them to pose for a picture, and Paul turned to her and smiled his warm smile...and wrapped his arms around her waist and said in her ear, "I love you," and Manda smiled and whispered in his ear "I love you too," as the photographer snapped their picture. That was her favorite picture out of all the pictures he took. Her second favorite was of her and Benji...all smiles...And Benji hugging her with pride as if theyd been best friends for forever. And her third would be of her and Amanda and Kiri and Andrea, arms wrapped around each others waist like best friends and laughing.

__Flashback ended__
But those days are long over. Two months after their wedding day they decided they wanted a kid...and so they did the proper steps. And soon enough, two weeks later, Manda was pregnant. And the guys of Good Charlotte had a three month tour ahead of them. So Manda was left at home with Kiri and Amanda, who helped her during her first months. During those months they thought of names, and room ideas, and just talked about everyone and everything.

So now Manda lay in her bed, gaining strength from her memories while watching Kiri and Benji. She smiled.

"When do I get out of here?" Manda asked Kiri. Kiri and Benji broke out of their intimacy to stare at Manda. "Oh, did I ruin the moment? I'm sorry, I'll just go back to sleep and remain weak and helpless. Carry on!" Manda said sarcastically and closed her eyes.
"No wait!" Kiri said, shaking Manda's arm. Manda opened her eyes. "Fine...but when do I get to leave?" Manda asked.
"Either tomorrow or the day after tomorrow," Kiri said. Manda smiled. "I want to leave tonight," Manda said.
Kiri smiled and left the room, and Benji took the seat Paul had once occupied.

[Kezzie]

Chapter Seven-

"Hello blue eyes", Benji said.
"Hey Benj," I replied.
"So...talk to Paul tonight?"
Manda stared at the ceiling before replying with a "Yes".
Benji slouched in the chair, sighing heavily.
"Well how did it go?" he asked.
"Oh, it was...perfect...I forgave him," I said slowly.
Benjis smile turned into a frown. "That quick?" He asked.
I nodded. "I was forced to make it quick," Manda replied. Benji sat straight up in his chair. "How so?" He asked quizzically.
Manda turned to look at him. He was such a caring guy. He was her best friend, and she wouldnt ever lie to him. But, theres been so much drama tonight, and she didnt want to put him through any more of it. The last thing she'd do is put him through more of it. So instead she just stared into his eyes. Those soft brown eyes Kiri looks into every day. What does she see in them that everyone else doesnt? Manda asked herself. Just then Kiri came through the room with a tired Amanda and Jordan. Both yawned at the same time and went on the other side of Manda's bed. "Howya puttin up?" Amanda slurred. "I'm putting up okay," Manda replied. Amanda nodded and Jordan grabbed two chairs for he and Manda to sit on while Kiri stood behind Benjis chair. Amanda rested her head on Jordan, who was falling asleep in his chair. "PUNDIK!" Manda shouted with her new energy. He literally shot out of his chair and Amandas eyes went huge. Just then a nurse came in, telling them all that Manda was free to go tomorrow morning. Everyone nodded and she left the room with a smile. Jordan turned his head to Manda. "Whadduh hell?" He asked, letting his hand run through his hair. Manda shrugged. Benji puckered up his lips like he just tasted something sour, and Manda did too. This was out way of saying goodbye. They puckered their lips like we just tasted something sour and kiss each other. They didnt think Kiri minded that much, since she knew they had nothing like that for each other and they had been best friends way before Kiri. "We must be off," Benji said, pulling back. Manda nodded and smiled. "Bye bye, Kiri! Thank you for everything!" I said. Kiri smiled. "No prob Manda," and she and Benji walked out the door.
But anyway, this left Amanda and Jordan. "Jordy, I need to talk to Manda for a second...do you mind leaving the room?" Amanda asked Jordan, clasping his hand in hers. He yawned and nodded and left the room. Amanda turned to Manda.

__Amandas Story__

I knew something was up. I know she just apologized to Paul but...somethings wrong here. Ive known Manda since she was thirteen and I was twelve. We've been best friends for almost ten years now. It didnt matter that we lived in two different states but...I moved up to Chicago back when I was 17, and we met GC together. And Manda finally met the man of her dreams, and I found Jordan through conections GC had. So now it was time to put our friendship to the test...she wouldnt lie to me, would she?

"Manda, I have wanted to ask you something for a long time now, and I hope you answer honestly, 'cause if you dont...well if I find out later yuou didnt, Id be crushed. And Id take my Movielife sweater back," I said with a little humor. All Manda did was stare blankly. "Okay, so I'll ask now," I said. I leaned in to her and said, "Manda, if something is wrong...you'd tell me, right? If anythings wrong, youd come to me, am I correct?" I asked her softly. She stopped staring as I watched her eyes puff up and tears formed.
"Manda..." I said. Manda finally dropped a tear. This was just proof something was wrong. "Manda!" I said, getting up to hug her. "Its okay babe...its okay....its alright to cry..." I said, stroking her hair. She sniffled. "Amanda I dont know...::sniffle::...what to do!" she said through tears and sniffling. "Paul hurt me today. And he did it again tonight, and I just dont want to go directly to his and my house, because he might try to hurt me again!" she exclaimed through fitfulls of tears. I sat back down in the chair. Manda was sitting up and drying her tears. "Manda when you get released tomorrow, you're free to live with me and Jordy for a while!" I said. Manda nodded and said, "Okay". I smiled and hugged her again. "Alright Manda, me and Jordan will pick you up tomorrow at nine sharp!" I said. "Bye bye Amanda! I love you lots!" Manda said as I was out the door. "Me too Manda...I love you too," I said, and with that I went outside and woke a sleeping Jordan.

__Manda's Story__

Well that wasnt hard. I just wonder what Paul will do when he finds out Im going to be living with Amanda for a couple of days. I need to go home anyway and get my stuff, but I'll be ready to go within minutes. And I really hope Jordan doesnt mind.
And I wonder what Jordan will say when he finds out...that Amanda found someone...new...

[Kezzie]

-Chapter Eight-

__Next Morning__

I woke up with a huge surprise.

Paul was sleeping in the chair Benji had once occupied. I glared at Paul, and rolled over. My stomach hurt so bad. It was like having cramps times five million. I just looked out the window on the opposite side of where Paul was, until I heard him stir. I heard him yawn and scratch his back. Well, I assumed it was his back.
I shut my eyes when I heard his chair creak and his footsteps. He leaned over me and kissed my cheek. Why did I forgive him? I asked myself.
I couldnt remember the previous night all that well...just the noises. A car crashing, my screaming, Pauls and Amandas and Jordans and Benjis and Kiris voices. Oh, and I remember the shock of the car, and the feeling I got when Paul kissed me. Just recalling those feelings made me want to throw up.

So I did. Alllll over that side of the bed. Paul jumped back and yelled "Fuck!"
He then ran out of the room to go get a janitor, and I crawled out of bed. I stood in my room with the hospitals flannel pants and my tank top from last night. I rubged my eyes and stretched, and sat in the chair. Paul came in, with a janitor following. The janitor had to be around the age of 50. His hair was thinning out under his dirty trucker hat and his skin was as white as the rooms'. "Thanks again," Paul said, coughing a little. The janitor grunted and started scooping up my vomit. I felt so bad for him...and the room smelled so vile. "Amanda's picking me up soon," I told Paul. Paul looked at me in what seemed like disbelief. "No she's not," he said calmly. I nodded. I started choking a little bit...and more of my insides flew out. This time some landed on Pauls shoes. "You bitch!" He exclaimed absent-mindedly. Now it was my turn to stare in deisbelief.
"I'm..sorry?" I asked him in a pissed off manner.
Paul made an 'uh oh' face...and the only think I could do was watch his eyes grow big. "I'm sorry!" He said, reaching out to hug me. But I pushed him away and ran out of the room. The janitor was now glaring at Paul. Paul followed me out of the room. I ran all the way down the hall until I reached the bathroom. I was aware that Paul was on my heels, and as quickly as I could I shut the bathroom door. Paul slammed right into the door. I locked it and walked to the corner...and cried. "Manda! Please!" I heard Paul shout from the door. I cried harder. "Go away!" I said. Realizing my cell phone was in my room just made me cry even harder. "I WANT AMANDA!" I cried out loud. Paul was silent on his end. "Manda...dont be like this..." Paul said; after two minutes.
I sniffled, before crawling over to the door and whispering to it, "Where did my Paul go?" Paul was again silent. I got more courage where that came from...
"Paul, what did you see in that chick that made you do the thing you did?" I asked again. Paul was still silent.
"And Paul..Are you happy the baby's gone?" I asked. My watch beeped. Nine o'clock.
"Paul.." I said. When I said that, I heard footsteps walking away from the door. I slowly unlocked it.

Thinking I was safe, I peeked my head out...just in time to see Amanda. Amanda and Sean.

[Kezzie]

-Chapter Nine-

"Manda! What the fuck?!" Amanda said in a worried tone. Sean had his arm slung over Manda with a smile on. "Hey Manda..." He said lazily. "Hi" I said quietly. I wasnt a big fan of Amandas...uh...side project. I wasnt a fan of his band (Yellowcard), but I kept this all to myself.
"Manda, Paul was just here! He just ran out that door!" Amanda said, pointing to the door just down the main hallway. I sighed heavily and looked at the ground. Amanda's worn converse had Yellowcard's logo on one toe, and NFG's on the other. Seans were white. New.
I looked up. "I asked him a few simple questions...and he left me," I said meekly. "I also threw up!" I said, in a brighter tone. Amanda gave me a disgusted look and Sean just...chuckled. I snorted at Sean. I really, really cant stand that guy. Just something about him...ugh whatever.
"Manda! Look at me!" Amanda said, now holding on to Seans arm as he looked me up and down with the sleaziest smile on. I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms. I looked at her then. She looked so...sad. At twenty two she already looked thirty. I couldnt stand watching her. She changed so much after she layed her eyes on Sean...
"Manda, I would like to hear what you asked Paul," She said. I frowned. "I'll tell you later...I want to go back to your place," I said. Amanda looked at Sean. "By the way, where the hell is Pundik?" I asked her. "He...is doing an interview. He says hes sorry he couldnt make it," Amanda replied before kissing Sean...which turned into a lengthy makeout session. I broke in between them and made it for the main entrance. I wasn't aware Paul was watching me opening the door to Amanda's car and crawling in...with Amanda and Sean right behind.


__Amanda's House__

"Sean, maybe you should go. Jordan will be home any minute," Amanda said, stroking his cheek. He smiled..that sleazy ass smile of his. God how I wanted to CRUSH him. "Mkay baby...just call me when he isnt around, alright?" Sean said. Manda nodded before Sean pulled her in for a makeout session...once again.

I walked up to their guest room. It was funny, cause before Paul I usd to spend so much time at Amandas...and I just made this my second home. My Morrissey poster hung over my wall, and my GC poster on the ceiling, and my John Lennon poster on another side of the room. The room was an off-white color...a very, very faded purple. It was pretty. I twirled in this room before going over to my closet. And yep, all my old clothes were there. It had been a while since Id been in this room...five years. My closet smelled like shit, and I was thankful all my clothes still fit me. But they smelled pretty damn bad too, so I decided to do laundry. As I made my way down the stairs, I realized Sean was still here...and in the same spot he was in when I left to go upstairs. I grunted loudly before going in the basement.
I heard the door slam shut and Amandas footsteps going into her kitchen. She was using the phone.

__Amanda's Story__

"Hello is Jordan there?" I asked on the phone.
"Yes this this Jordan," the man on the other line answered. "Oh hey babe! I was wondering when you were coming home?" I asked in my most innocent voice. "Ahhh, not for about another hour or two. We're eating lunch right now and me and Cyrus are about to go and do yet another interview on the other side of town," Jordan answered tiredly. I nodded...aware Jordan was not around to see it. "Well okay then...just call when youre on your way home, k?" I asked. "Mkay, bye I looooooooooooove you!" Jordan said on the other line. "Bye", I said, and hung up.
I don't know whats with me. I met Sean a year ago at a gig NFG had with YC, and he just seemed nice. Jordan and I were going through a rough time...we thought I was pregnant. But I proved Jordan wrong when I took a pregnancy test. I think he wanted the baby by the face he gave me. And his actions. He hugged me and just laid his head on top of mine-----after all, he's a couple of inches taller than me and he's almost thirty. And I'm twenty two. Great, right? Wrooooong. He's WAY more experienced than me...and earlier. Well, I think Ive had more experience then him, but he was earlier than I! But whatever. I'm happy having two somewhat separate lives. Not like I'm complaining or anything. It's just...Manda. Shes so bent out of shape; and Paul. He used to be so cool...right before Manda announced she was pregnant. He turned into this...self centered...blob. Whatever. It's not my business. Ive just been so depressed over everything as of late. Manda and Paul, Sean and I, Jordan and I. Yeah Sean can be a dirty kid too...if you get him thinking the wrong way...

__Amanda's Story Ends__

[Kezzie]

Chapter Ten-

After about 2 hours of laundry washing and drying, I gatherd up my huge pile and walked up the stairs to my closet. I stole some ahngers from Mandas closet and I found a few just lying around, so I used those. Once again, I heard the front door open, and I was pretty sure it was Jordan; just because I heard him shout "Babe I'm back!" And Amanda emerged from her room. "Jordy!" Manda squealed before being embraced in a hug.

__Amanda's Story__

I've always loved the smell Jordan had. It was leathery with just a little bit of cologne. I always looked forawrd to it at the end of the day. I looked up at Jordan, and his smile faded. "Baby what's wrong? He said quietly. I could feel the smile fade from my lips too. "Nothing...why do you ask?" I asked him. "It's..nevermind. You just look sad," Jordan said, pulling me in for a kiss. I closed my eyes and just let his kiss take me away. Away from what Ive felt, away from what Ive seen.

__Amandas Story Ends__

__Pauls Story__

I still dont know what the fuck possessed me to call her a 'bitch'. I really dont. I feel terrible for putting Manda through such harm. Ive been waiting for this kid for what seems like years...we had the name planned out and everything. We were going to name the kid Matt. Matthew for the full name. She said that shes always liekd that name...a handsome name.
Whatever.
I said 'yes' to make her happy, and Im sure it did. After she got pregnant, she changed too. She started hanging out with Amanda and Benji so much more. I know theyre her best friends, but I just felt somewhat neglected. I didnt like sharing her with two other people. Manda thought it was quite absurd when I told her this. She said shes known Amanda since she was 13, and that shes always thought of Benji as her idol. Even when she was 13 shes admired him. I just hope its nothing more than that.
But damn, that chick from last night was manipulative. Being the sucker that I am, I didnt think Manda would actually witness this happening...and of course I thought wrong. Like always. I was so close to coming when Manda walked in. The look on Mandas face just tore me apart. I jumped out of bed just as she was running away.
And I let her go.
I'm such a fucking bastard. But now Manda refuses to see me. What an asshole. Who wouldnt want to see me? Cmon now. So now I'm out in front of Amandas house, watching the guest room window; watching Manda put away things, and watching Manda slip away from me.
Thatll change.

__Pauls Story Ends__

__Mandas Begins__

I was finally relaxing. It actually felt good that I didnt have several pounds on me anymore. It was sort of a relief. I wonder what would happen if the baby were born? What would Pa---
No. I cant think of him. This'll only get me hurt. I hope those questions did sink into his heart, though. These are the times I want Benj here. Amanda and Benji. I cant think of anything else when Amanda and Benji are with me. Amandas happier too. No Sean. Benji hates Sean too hehe. And Jordan can join. Amandas somewhat happy with Jordan around. Yeah. I wish Paul were there too...The way Paul was before the baby. He was nicer and much more interesting. I loved hearing his poetry...his dry jokes, the way he smiled and the way his eyes lit up. But no, I dont think Ill see that Paul again. Itd be a miracle if I catch him smiling.

[Kezzie]

-Chapter Eleven-

I laid on my bed in silence. I turned ove to read the alarm clock.
7:45 PM.
I sat up and went over to my window, where I overlooked the neighbor's lengthy backyard and the pretty sunset. It seemed like hours went by as I watched the sunset go down. I was disrupted when I heard my name being called. "Manda!" Amanda shouted. I didnt reply. I looked out the window one last time before going downstairs. Now the staircase has several windows lining it, so as I go down I can see Amanda's driveway. I looked out the highest (and also the first) window, and saw a very familiar looking car...
"Coming!" I said, watching the car.
Someone was in it. I could tell because there was a shadow bobbing up and down and sideways. "Amanda?" I called. Amanda walked to the foot of the stairs.
"Yeah?"
"Come up here and take a look at this car," I said. Amanda gave me a quizzical look as she made her way up the stairs. It wasnt long before her eyes were bulging out of their sockets.
"Shit, I'll be right back," She said, and ran down the stairs and out the door.

__Outside; Amanda's Story__

I slammed the door behind me and made my way over to the car. He was sleeping inside. I knocked on his window and he jumped to life. "What the fuck?!" He yelled, opening his door. I dodged the door and slammed it when he got out. "WHAT THE FUCK!? Why are you here?!" I yelled at a disturbed Paul.
Paul looked at the ground and leaned on his sleek, black car. "Well...I want Manda. Can you get her for me?" He pleaded; making puppy dog eyes. I snarled at him. "Paul those kind of eyes really don't work for you," I said. "Dont get a fucking attitutde with me! May I see my wife?" He asked me. I folded my arms and looked up at Manda. She was making her way down now.

__Manda's Story__

It bothered me to see my best friend yelling at my husband. It takes a lot of nerve to yell at Paul; especially since hes the quiet one out of the band and the most opinionated member. I opened the door and stood in the entrance. Paul turned towards me. He took a few steps closer, and Amanda could do nothing but watch. "Please...Come home with me? Back to our house...back to reality," Paul said. My mouth gaped; I could feel it. "Paul, I dont know about you, but Ive been living in reality for a while now," I said calmly. I crossed my arms. Paul took another step closer. He was about to say something but I interrupted him: "And you never answered my questions".
Paul stood and looked me up and down.
"I...Didnt know...I dont know..how to answer those questions" Paul said, obviously frustrated. I sighed and just stared at him. Amanda was just behind him, waiting to punch him at any given moment. I looked deep into his eyes as he walked over to me. We were now just a few inches apart. "Paul.." I said in a whisper. He looked into my eyes. "Yeah?"
"...Take me home".

[Kezzie]

-Chapter Twelve-

The twenty minute drive home was filled with silence. Paul kept glancing over at me. I looked at him, and we both said nothing.
It was a stop light.
We just sat there looking at each other. His eyes darted around my face. He was leaning in now...

I looked out the window, and he caressed my neck. I closed my eyes as I was recalling a distant memory..


"I love you so much", Paul said in my ear. I giggled and turned my head so we were nose to nose. "And I teh same," I said, leaning in to kiss him. He took hold of the back of my neck and pushed me harder into his lips. His tongue slowly made its way to greet my own. I grabbed the back of his neck and pushed him in closer.
We finally broke apart..both of us laughing a little. It had to be around 1 in the morning now. We got home from Benjis and Kiris house two hours go...and well, two hours ago it was past 11. We were leaning on our bedroom door. Paul turned the knob and we went inside, him beating me to the bed. He was on his back arms outstretched. Oh how I wanted this night to last forever. I got on the opposite side of the bed and crawled over to him so I was now beside him. I kissed his cheek as he pulled me o top of him. I layed on his stomach and watched him. I layed my head on his chest and heard his heartbeat. It was racey. He touched my cheek and I looked up to see him smiling down at me. I crawled up so that we were face to face and I kissed his nose. "I'll love you..always" I said, now tracing a heart on his cheek. "And I'll love you always", he said. poking my nose. I closed my eyes and kissed him. He slowly moved his hand under my shirt. I smiled and kissed him more. I sat up on him and just took off my shirt, and threw it to the ground. He sat up too and took off his shirt. He started undoing his pants...And I knew that tonight was the night.

"Manda...we're home", Paul said cautiously. I turned to look at him. He smiled and undid my seatbelt. "Paul, there was no need to.."
"I know, but I was being nice," He said, giving me a sweet smile. "It's been a while since youve smiled, Paul..." I said. "Well, Its been a while since Ive seen you", He replied.
"Only a night"
"Feels like a year", he insisted. I gave up and walked up the steps to our house. He unlocked the door and as soon as he did so the alarm went off. He ran off to go unset it. I slipped my low top converse off, and ran up the stairs. I walked up to the bedroom, and the door was closed. I opened it, and I was greeted with the smell of cigarettes. "Damnit Paul," I muttered under my breath.
I hated it when he smoked. I'm anti drug, and it just hurt me more to see him smoke; despite my warnings.
Ugh!
"Paul!" I called form teh top of the stairs. Paul walked to the bottom of the stairs. "Yeah?" he said. "Please come up here and deodorize the bedroom," I said sweetly. He moaned but made his way up the stairs and right past me. He grabbed the bottle and closed the door. In a minute he was out with two cigarette trays. Eyeing the trays in his hand, I said, "If you loved me youd give up smoking".
"I try," He said bluntly. I walked into the freshened room. The bed was made...what a surprise. But there were his clothes all over. I saw his Pixies shirt, and took off my own shirt and put the Pixies shirt on. It was a little big, but I liked it. I took off my pants and made my way over to my own closet.I grabbed a pair of old black shorts and put them on. I didnt realie Paul was in the doorway. I jumped when I saw him. He smirked and walked up to me. He stretched his arms for a hug. I stood like an idiot and stared at his chest. "Cmon, Manda!" He encouraged me. I frowned, and hugged him back. The first thing he did was kiss my neck. Roughly. I hugged him tighter. "Paul...ow.." I said slowly. Paul started kissing on the other side of my neck. He put his hands around my thighs and kissed a little hare. "Paul...ow...stop!" I said, yellign in his ear. He pulled back and looked at me in the eyes. "Aw Manda, cant we just forget about the slut and go back to old times?" He said. "I wish it were that easy," I said. He leaned his head a little closer.
He brushed his lips over my own, and nibbled on my bottom lip. I liked it when he did that...well, used to like it. I pulled away. I made my way over to the bed, pushed the covers aside, got in, pulled them back up, and saig goodnight. Simple as that. I fell right asleep.