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Post by Kezzie on Oct 8, 2004 17:08:11 GMT
-Chapter Thirteen-
I woke up to feel weight on my waist. Who could it be? Well, it was Pauls arm. He wrapped his arm around me while I slept. He was still fully clothed...but he smeled like cigarettes. 1, is that I HATE cigaretttes, 2 I cant stand it when he smokes, and 3 the smell rubbed off on me. I decided on taking a shower then going over to Kiris. I turned the water on, stripped, and got in. I was in there for a good 20 minutes. I looked down to see the huge bruise on my stomach. A purply red. It made me want to puke.
But I didnt. What a good girl I am.
I just washed and didnt look at my scar. When i was finished I stepped out and wrapped myself in a towel and dired my hair with another towel. I blew dry my hair, straightened it then curled it. Like always.
I went back into the bedroom to see Paul still asleep. I sighed, made my way over to my closet, and grabbd some clothes. I was going to change in the bathroom. I put on the Bauhaus tee Amanda gave me for my birthday last year, and a black skirt that was torn up at the bottom. And fishnets. I went back in our room..but Paul wasnt there. I shrugged it off an went downstairs. Paul was eating some cereal when I walked into the kitchen. He stopped and watched me grab a granola bar. "Hey babe," He acknowledged my presence. I nodded to him, put the box of granolas back, and went to search for my new stiletto boots. I found them in the TV room, and slipped them on. As I turned around to leave, Paul was in the doorway. "Excuse me," I said meekly. I didnt want to start any fights with Paul today. He just stared. "Why?" He asked. "Paul just let me go," I was getting a little annoyed. "Where ya goin?" He asked. "Kiris", I said simply. He chucked and stepped aside. "What?" I said in an innocent voice. "Manda...I have to ask you something," Paul said carefully. "Sure", I said, eyeing him. "Sit," He said, pointing to the couch next to me. I quickly sat and Paul did too. He took my hand in his. "Manda..." He said. "Yes?"
"Is there something going on between you and Benji that Id liek to hear about?" He said, in the same voice my mom always used with me... "Fuck no! Paul hes my best friend!" I said. I was quite pissed off. "Im just going there to see Kiri! Goddamn!" I blurted. I ran out the door and was about to open the main door when he grabbed my hand. "You forgot something," He whispered. He slipped my wedding ring on my finger, and I nearly cried. "Thanks.." I said, before opening the door and slamming it shut.
The happy song was playing in my car...oh such a happy song.."But I would walk 500 miles and I would walk 500 more just to be the man that walked that thousand miles..." Paul used to sing it to me all the time. It's a very old song. It's like our theme song! But yeah, those were good times. I dont know what happeend. I just dont.
__Kiris House; 30 minutes later__
"So do you need anything?" Kiri asked. I shook my head, and sat in a chair in their kitchen. The kitchen had posters everywhere of signatures from various artists: Morrissey, MEST, NFG, Slipknot, Marilyn Manson even! Kiri was making herself a sandwich when Benji came in, still in flannel pants and a pajama shirt, and said goodmorning to us. He kissed Kiri before coming over to me. We did the pucker kiss! We didnt dare do it in front of Paul. No, not even when he was a good guy. We smiled before he went over to where Kiri was and hugged her from behind. It was so cute...I had to stop staring. I turned around and jsut looked at all the autographed posters.
In the TV room that connected with the kitchen, my dream guitar was put in a case and was on the wall. A Gibson SG Ebony coled special. The best of the best owned that guitar. I walked over to it and stared. I do this everytime I come over. I just love that guitar! And I cant just go to a store and purchase one 'cos Gibson doesnt make them anymore. That just lowered my spirits. Someone came up behind me and touched my shoulder. "You like that guitar dont you?" Benji asked me in my ear. I just nodded. "The best of the best own it..." Benji said. "I know, Benjamin", I said in a pissed off tone. He let his hand fall off my shoulder and he stood next to me. He crossed his arms and watched my eyes tear up. "Awwwww, Manda, dont make me go emo," he teashed. I smiled and looked up at him; tears in my eyes. Then the phone rang. We heard Kiri pick it up.
"Manda! It's Amanda!" She yelled.
__Phone__
"Hey Manduhhhh," I teased on the phone. I was still sniffling. "Hey dork...you dont sound too good. You alright?" "Yeah I'm alright...just a little upset I dont own my dream guitar," I laughed. I twirled the chord inmy hand. "Yeah...Listen, do you want my to stop by Kiris and drop off your clothes?" she asked. "Uhhh, yeah sure. Just as long as you dont drag Sleazebag with you," I teased. She sighed before giggling. "Yeah whatever, see you in a few" and she hung up.
__Phone Convo Ended__
"Amandas gonna stop by and drop off some clothes!" I said. Kiri was in a nice little makeout session with Benj. Why do I always catch people at the wrong time? I asked myself.
The bell rang. We all sort of jumped; Kir and Benj especially. He went to go open the door, and was surprised to see who was standing there.
"Hey Paul! Come in!" He said. Paul came in with two basses and a queer smile. My own smile dropped. "Hey Paul..what are you doing here?" I said. "Meh, just came by to play for yall," He said.
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Post by Kezzie on Oct 8, 2004 17:08:48 GMT
-Chapter Thirteen 1/2-
He went into the basement, and everyone followed. Downstairs was GCs practice room; drumset, amps, guitars, and Benjis own bass. Paul hooked his bass up to his amplifier and turned it on. I watched his fingers pluck the thick, silver strings. Benji walked over to a red couch that was up against the wall that the stairs were in (Did that make sense? Ah fuck it) and Kiri follwed, then me. I sat down NEXT to the couch rather than on it. Surprisingly Benji followed and sat down with me. Paul stared at us as he was playing the bassline to '500 Miles'. I smiled. He smirked and looked down at his bass. It was shiny and silver; he got it for his birthday last year. Well, I gave it to him. I remember the scene perfectly...
"Awww Manda! You didnt have to get this for me!" He exclaimed. I put my arms around him and kissed his cheek as he turned the bass over and over. "Its such a pretty color...I love you!" He said cheerfully and kissed me. "I'll love you more than you'll ever know.." I whispered in his ear. He giggled. I loved his giggle. So girly. Teehee. We were outside on our front porch on the swing we built together that summer. He strummed the unplugged bass and I sat and stared out at the sun ahead of us. We live near the water, you know. We had an excellent view of the sunset. "Manda? Whatcha thinking?" He said, putting his arm around me. I shrugged. "Paul..." I said, cautiously. "Yeah?" "...Can we have a baby?" I asked him, a bit peaky. He stared at me. For a while we sat there staring at each other blankly until a smile crossed his face. He got up and went inside for a second with the bass. Then he rushed back out, grabbed my hand and pulled me inside, and pushed me up our stairs.
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Post by Kezzie on Oct 8, 2004 17:10:31 GMT
-Chapter Fourteen-
"Manda? Yoo hooooo", Kiri was singing, waving a hand in my face. i jumped when I came back to reality. "Whatd I miss?!" I said, turning to see everyone frantically. "Uh, nothing...Paul was just playing his bass and Benj and I were watching," Kiri said, leaning over the couch. Paul was sitting on a chair, strumming the beautiful silvery bass. I got up, and unzipped Pauls other bass's case, and got out his plain blue base. I hooked it up to the second input and strummed "I Miss You". Paul stopped to watch. He watched my fingers pluck away...then he suddenly grabbed my arm. "Teach me," He said. I nodded and turned to face him. As I was teaching the song, I didnt realize Kiri and Benj got up and left. Left the house. They went for coffee.
__Kiri and Benji get home 30 minutes later__
"I wonder how Paul and Manda are putting up," Kiri said, dropping her purse on the stairs and turning the corner to the stairs downstairs. It was quiet down there. She tiptoed down, to see Manda and Paul kissing. Kiri smiled and walked back up the stairs.
"So how are they? I dont hear any music!" Benji said, plopping down on the couch in their den and turning on the TV. Kiri smiled and took a sip of her coffee. "Oh, theyre just going over..things.." Kiri said with a sly voice. Benji didnt comprehend, so he shrugged it off and went back to his TV. Kiri smiled wider and went into the kitchen and sat down at their table.
__Back to Manda and Paul__
Manda pulled away first. Paul was left in the position he was in....lips out eyes closed leaning. Manda giggled. She looked away, and let her smile drop. Paul got up, turned off the bass and unplugged his basses. He put them in their cases and zipped the cases up. The basement was so roomy. The black and white checkered carpet was so comfy and soft...and the walls were all white. I loved the basement. I walked over to where Benjis guitar stood. I picked it up and strummed it. The stickers were all peeling and torn now. I strummed 'Blackbird' on it. What a peaceful song. I remember being 13 and trying to learn it. Goddamn...with Matt vigorously placing my fingers in the right place and getting frustrated. But I soon learned that song, and I was incredibly happy. INCREDIBLY. When I was done, Paul wasnt downstairs. I put down Benjis guitar and walked upstairs. I saw Benji in the. "Hey...sonded good down there," Benji said. I nodded. I turned the corner to go out the front door, but Benji stopped me. "Manda...we need to talk," Benji said. He looke paler...than usual, anyway. "Mkay," I said. We went out the back door and into their gigantic backyard. Parties and social events have been held here in the past. We walked into the middle of their giant backyard, until he told me to stop. "Now Manda, me being your best friend and all, its my duty to be worried about you," He said, coming a little closer. "...Okay...." I said, uneasy with myself. "How are you and Paul? Are you two doing alright?" He asked. I nodded. "We're just grand...Not like old days, but we're grand," I said. He nodded his head, looking at me right in the eyes. "You have pretty eyes.." He said, blushing. "Benji.."
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Post by Kezzie on Oct 8, 2004 17:10:53 GMT
-Chapter Fifteen-
Just as he was about to hug me, Paul came storming out of the house. "WHAT THE HELL!?" He shrieked. Benji jumped with surprise. I stared, wide eyed, as a pissed off Paul came near. "Paul! Calm the fuck down!" I screamed. Luckily, Benji's neighbors are all away on vacation; It was August, after all. Paul stood nose to nose with me. He grabbed my wrist and said, "We're out", and before turning around he gave Benji a death stare. He speed walked off the backyard. He was holding on so tight to my wrist I started pounding him "Paul It's not what you think! I swear it's not like that!" I screamed at him. I dragged myself...making it harder for him to yank me out of the backyard. A dumbfound Benji was planted right where he was. "Manda!" He yelled. I turned back at him "I'm so so sorry!" I yelled. Benji stared at us until we finally got off the grounds and walked through the house. Kiri ran out from the den just as we were ten feet from the door. "Manda?" She asked. But we were already out the door. He opened the passengers seat door and threw me in; literally. He shut the door and got on the other side. "I can't believe this," Paul said; enraged. I was still shocked. "Paul you fucking moron! It's not like that, and it never was!" I yelled. I was so shocked and so pissed off I could no longer control myself. "You're so paranoid! He was about to hug me, didn't you see that?! I was nearly in TEARS YOU IDIOT!" I screamed. He screeched to a halt, and looked at me in a shocked manner. "Oh yeah, and what do you have to cry about NOW?" He said, annoyed. "Everything," I replied in a tiny voice. Even though we were holding up traffic in the nice suburban area, it didnt stop him from continuing this pointless argument. "Paul..." I said, finally. "What" "I dont want to live with you anymore," I said in hysterics. "Youre not the man I married...and youre not the man I love. I dont know where Pauly went...but he sure as hell isnt with me". And with that, he started the car up, and drove to our house. "Wait...Paul...What I meant by that last comment was 'turn the fuck around'" He stared at our garage door, looked and smirked at me. "I'll show you where Paul is. He's been here all along, dont you get it? People change after periods of time Amanda, but no. You cant see that! Why? BECAUSE YOURE LIVING IN YOUR OWN WORLD! And I dont want to hurt you...but I just have to make you realize, that I am the same Pauly you fell in love with, and the same Pauly you married, and the same Pauly that helped create our child. And I will do my damned hardest, to love you again; before the baby. Like you said. I love you!" He said, and with that, he got out of the car and opened my door.
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Post by Kezzie on Oct 8, 2004 17:11:17 GMT
-Chapter Sixteen-
It was seven o'clock now. I've been in our room since three. Paul's knocked on the door several times, but I wont let him in. I slept for a while, and I get up and walk around and strum the guitar. I've been thinking about what Paul said, of course. Just when I was reflecting for the thirtieth time, he knocked on the door again. "Manda? Please let me in! I'm sorry for what I said, I love you! Manda, let me in!" Paul pleaded through the thick wooden door. I sighed, got up from the bed, and unlocked the door. I opened it and he was just an inch from me. He looked down at me...seeing as Im a few inches shorter than him. "You meant everything you said in that car Paul Anthony; It's best you dont lie to me," I said in a low voice. His eyes got all glossy. "Okay, you win. You win, Amanda. I meant everything I said in that car, and I'm not taking it back. I'm sorry that I messed around with that slut, and I wont do it ever again. Ever," When he said that he held my elbows and pulled me closer. "I still love you, and when youre ready we can go for the baby again; and I know at this point in time, you dont want the baby. But I do, someday. And you can choose the name. Yeah, you can choose the name," He said. He hugged me, and I drew my arms up to my chest and let him. "Okay, Paul. I'll give you a second chance..." I said through tears. He kissed my head and said "Okay". We hugged for a bit. But then I gently pushed him away and went back in the room. He followed. I sat on the bed, and he did too. "So...what did you do in here for four hours?" He asked with a smile. I smiled too. "Uhm, I just...slept. Yeah, I slept," I said. He nodded his head and said, "Ah". I nodded as well. I decided to lay down on his leg. As I was laying down on the bed to do so, he cupped my face in his hands and kissed me. He grabbed my left hand. "Where's your ring..." He said, pulling away. I sat up. "It's downstairs, in the den," I said. He got up and left. He came back a minute later with it on. I looked up at him, smiled, took it from him and slipped it on. "Thank you," He said. "No problem". "Would you like to go get something to eat?" I nodded hesitantly and left the room. He followed and we got in his car.
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Post by Kezzie on Oct 8, 2004 17:11:43 GMT
-Chapter Seventeen-
__Restaurant__
"So what are you going to get?" Paul asked, reading over his menu. "Eh not too sure..everything sounds awesome!" I replied enthusiastically. He laughed. I missed his laugh! "Alright, I think I know wht I'm going to---" Paul didnt finish his sentence; he didnt get to. A blonde, a little older than me--and I think Paul too--Strided over to our table..and sat her ass on the table. She crossed her legs and looked over to Paul. "Hey babe...this your girl? She's a cutie," She said, now sneering at me. I looked up at her with all the hate I had in me. "Paul, who is this?" I asked him. She looked over at Paul and gave a husky laugh. "Oh Paul, you never told her about me? How rude of you," She said, getting off the table now and and sitting in the chair next to me. "The names Jessie; Paul and I had our fun a couple of nights ago," She said. She smiled in a dirty manner. I stared at her, bewildered. "Oh yeah, and he sucks in bed; just to let you know," she said. I got up. "YEAH WELL ID FUCKING KNOW YOU WHORE! YOU KILLED MY BABY! MINE! I FUCKING HATE YOU; GO BACK TO WHERE YOU BELONG YOU FUCKING BITCH," I screamed, and ran out of the restaurant. It was black out. "Manda, wait!" Paul said, yelling after me. Wiping the tears from my eyes, I got out the extra keys as fast as I could and slid in the car. I shut the door and drove away. Paul was running after the car. As I got out of hte parking lot I drove to the one place that came up in my head first: Kiri's.
__Kiri's Place__
"KIRI LET ME IN OH PLEASE LET ME IN!" I said, banging on the door so fucking hard and fast. "HOLD ON," Someone screamed inside. Benji opened the door. He was in his pajamas already. "Whats goin on?" He said, rubbing his head. "I'm sorry to wake you, Im really sorry," I said through tears. He stopped rubbing his head when he saw me crying. "Oh babe, what happened now?" He said. He pulled me inside.
With a kleenex in one hand, I told them about running into Pauls whore. Kiri held my vacant hand as Benji sat on teh ground looking up at me. "You can stay here for tonight..." Kiri said. I gulped loudly and cried harder. "No, I wanna go home! I WANT TO GO HOME!" I cried. Benji stood up and hugged me. "Aw Manda honey dont worry; I'll drive you home. Then I'll go back and get Paul," He said. I nodded and let go of Kiris hand. "I'll talk to you tomorrow Manda...sleep well!" Kiri said. I nodded as Benji led me out the door and into Pauls car.
__Mandas House__
"So youre going to be okay?" Benji said, rubbing my back. I nodded slowly and very slowly made my way out of the car. "Okay then...well, good night Manda," He said. I nodded. "Kiss?" Benji said. I looked back at him. "Oh Manda...it hurts me so much to see you sad..." He said. I swear I saw tears in his eyes. I climbed back in the car and made my face. He did too, and we kissed. "Sleep well..." He said. "You too," I replied quietly, and went inside my house.
__Restaurant; Benjis Story__
I drove around til I finally got to the restaurant. Paul was sitting on the corner; Like I told him to. He got up and made his way to the car. "Hi," he said. "Hey" The whole ride home was silent. When I got to his house, I said before he left, "You have to be slow with Manda. Shes gone through so much these couple of days; Cheating, loss of a child, getting back, fighting, and the meeting of your little whore...but Paul, she loves you. Shes loved you for a long time, and shes living just because of you." Paul gave me a blank stare before nodding and saying "I'll try", and he got out of the car and went through the already open front door.
__Pauls Story__
Reflecting on what Benj said, I made my way up the stairs and into my room. Manda was already in bed...sound asleep. I smiled, but I couldnt sleep with her. I grabbed a tshirt, a pillow and a blanket and made my way to the couch downstairs. I'll talk to her tomorrow.
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Post by Kezzie on Oct 8, 2004 17:11:58 GMT
-Chapter Nineteen- *Final Bow*
I woke up, and went downstairs to the kitchen. It was nice and sunny outside; the sun poured from the window; giving the kitchen a nice little light. I retrieved some cereal, milk, a spoon and a bowl, and made myself a bowl of cereal. With my bowl I made my way over to the table and sat down. The house shook as Paul made his way downstairs. Sipping the milk left in my bowl, I made my way over to the sink and put my spoon and bowl in. Paul stood in the doorway. I stood by the sink, arms crossed and staring at Paul. He looked so tired. He was noticeably paler than he was just a week ago. His Bauhaus shirt was wrinkled, and there was a stain on the neckline... "Hey...Manda..." Paul said my name with caution. "Hi", I said in my raspy morning voice. I walked back over to the kitchen table to retrieve a magazine. "I'm just going to go...outside," I said. I opened the back door, and went out. "k," I heard Paul mumble before I stepped out.
__Pauls Story__
"Hello?" A man mumbled on the phone. "Hey Chris...I was just wondering if you wanted to come over; maybe practice a little?" A pause on the other line, followed by some crackling. "Ah, sure. I'll be over at around 1, mkay?" Chris asked. "Yeah whatever, see you then" I hung up.
I looked out the kitchen window that overlooked our patio. Manda had her car-eyed sunglasses on. But then, she closed her magazine, and got up from her chair. She stood up and walked over to a big tree, that was overlooking our backyard. (See the patio and the backyard are connected..soo yeah) She just...stood in the middle of our backyard. She looked so pretty...and perfect. I wanted to take a picture so bad. So I did. I retrieved my camera, snuck outside, and snapped some pictures. She turned around, and just as she did so I took her picture. She gave me a queer smile as if to say, "What the fuck are you doing?!" "Paul?" She yelled. "Yeah?" I yelled back. "Why are you taking my picture?" She asked. "I..." I started to say. She waited for my response. "I just thought this would be a good way, of remembeing this time period", I said. "Whats the period?" She asked. She was obviously confused. "The period where I was trying to persuade my wife that I love her with all my heart, and the time period where we lost a part of ourselves, and the time period where I made the most mistakes within a week," I said.
She giggled. She ran over to me and gave me a big hug. I hugged her back. "You always gave the best hugs," I said. She looked up at me. "No, you did" she said smiling. And for once, I think this was the happiest I have ever seen her be.
__Amanda's Story__
I rolled over, to see that Sean wasnt there with me. I had told Jordan the previous night that I was sleeping over at a friend of mine's house. "Whaa", I mumbled sleepily. I got up and put on my clothes from last night. I stumbled down the stairs...and what did I see? Sean and the same slut Paul did. And lots of scattered, passed out bodies around them. Yeah, so how did this happen? Well let me tell you. Sean threw a huge party; none of NFG invited. For my safety. ANYWAY, Sean invited everyone he knew. A lot of groupies, including Pauls little friend, came too. Manda was invited, but she said she had some plans; whatever that meant. ANYWAY, A lot of us got a little carried away with booze..and we all passed out; eventually. Sean and I occupied his main bedroom. So back to present time, I went up to Sean, punched him in the nose, then dragged the slut by her cheap-ass wig, and smacked her fuckin' silly. I kicked her in her ribs and shouted "That's for Manda!" And spat in her face, and I ran out the door and started my car. Sean didnt come out to stop me. So I just drove as fast as I could home; home to Jordan. I never told him of me and Sean; All Jordan knows, is that I despise Yellowcard, and that I hate them with a passion. Our relationship is a little tighter.
__Manda's Story; 3 Months Later__
It was me and Paul's second anniversary. Paul, me and others were all sitting around our massive living room; All of Good Charlotte, Kiri, Amanda, all of New Found Glory, all of MEST, Andrea, and so many others. Paul and I were in the middle of ur couch holding hands. "HAHA! I remember the time, when me, Paul, Benji, Kiri and Manda were at the beach...Hahaha...and Manda was sitting on her towel trying to get a tan, which didnt work out too well,and we found a dead fish!!" Tony was laughing his ass off, but continued, "So I took it...being the brave man that I am, and went behind her and PUT IT ON HER BACK and she ran like a mad man to the showers! HAHAHA!!!!" Tony was laughing his ass off...and I was blushing. "No Tony, that wasnt bravery you expressed a year ago; that was complete asshole-ism," I said laughing. Paul was laughing as he put his arm around me. "That was funny shit," Paul laughed. "No it wasnt! Goddamn you dont put a fucking fish on the back, of someone who has a PHOBIA OF FUCKING FISH!" I complained. Everyone was laughing now. "But it was DEAD!" Amanda cried out loud. "It doesnt fucking matter!" I complained. Everyone was now trying to calm down. "Aww Manda; will this fear ever recover?" Paul gasped for air, still giggling his girly giggle. "Nah," I shook my head. Paul placed his hand on my stomach, and looked up and smiled at him. I kissed him before saying, "Everyone, I have and an announcement". Everyone calmed down, and looked up at me. "Okay...so now that I have everyones attention," I said, smiling at Paul. "Aw Paul..I dont think I can tell em!" I whined. "Yes you can! Go ahead!" He squeezed my hand. "No..you tell," I siad. "Okay fine." He got up, pulling me up with him, bringing me into a hug before saying: "Everyone...I impregnated Manda". Everyone erupted with laugher, and cheers. I slapped his arm playfully. "Paul you bastard! You didnt need to put it like THAT!" I said. He pulled my face to his and held it there. Benji came up behind him and patted his back. Kiri and Amanda pulled me into a big hug...and Tony leaped on Kiris back to join in. "TONY OFF," She yelled. Tony leaped off and hugged me when everyone else pulled away. "I'm so happy for you..I knew everying would turn out alright! I knew it!!" He proclaimed. "Ooooooooooooooof course ye did," I said. Benji pulled Tony away and gave me a big hug. "Manda...Congratulations," he said, kissing my cheek. "Thanks Benj...kiss?" I asked him. He smiled and did his puckering. I did too...but ended up just licking him. "Sicko," He jumped back, not bothering to wipe his now slobbery cheek or nose off. "Your welcome," I replied sarcastically. Paul hugged me from behind and kissed my neck. "Can we name it Jessicka?" I asked him. "Only if it's a boy..." Paul said. I nudged him and he let go. He turned me around and said, "If it's a boy...can we name him John? Like you wanted?" He asked. I nodded and smiled.
The End!
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Post by Im In L.O.V.E on Jun 17, 2005 0:32:47 GMT
i thought it was matthew....? what ever...its awsome
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