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Post by My Senses Failed on Mar 10, 2004 23:33:28 GMT
haha i don't know about davey though..actually, i kinda don't want either of them.....i just don't want to be "someone's girlfriend" yet because its just too much drama for me at this point...i have to get a job and take summer school and i just don't have enough time for that title too, so i'll just fuck around and make out with guys and shit....no harm in that
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Post by ILovePirates55 on Mar 10, 2004 23:59:30 GMT
smart thinkin! you can have Steven all the way here from Illinois! ;D lol
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Post by My Senses Failed on Mar 11, 2004 0:29:12 GMT
woooooo sounds like a plan
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Post by My Senses Failed on Mar 11, 2004 1:14:50 GMT
Ok, so back to this diary shit. I'm feeling like total shit right now. Its like, I don't feel right in arizona. I don't feel right in north dakota either. I've never really felt complete before, i've always felt like something was missing. There was one time that I felt complete, like me, comfortable was at a show when i was hanging out with some people who will remain undisclosed. Anyways, I feel like something's holding me back from being all i can be. Its like i'm not supposed to be here, and this is not all i am. There's a secret side to me that i'm hiding because i feel held back, i don't know. i just don't really feel comfortable or right here in arizona or here with my dad. not even with my mom. but that one time, i felt complete, like me. i want that back...
in the meantime, i'm left sitting in my room, alone, on my computer, listening to the radio, feeling sorry for myself because it seems any guy that's ever even said he liked me and did stuff with me was just desperate. you don't know how shitty that makes me feel, to sit here, realizing that i'm just the act of desperation. its like no guy will ever like me for me...i'm just the last resort. it sucks. and it makes me want to cry......for hours.
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Post by hannah! on Mar 11, 2004 2:49:06 GMT
oh, bri! we're here for you. and if it makes you feel any better, i'm writing. ![:)](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/smiley.png)
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Post by My Senses Failed on Mar 11, 2004 2:52:27 GMT
thanks hannah...and yes, it does make me feel better ![:)](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/smiley.png)
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Post by hannah! on Mar 11, 2004 3:08:21 GMT
glad i could cheer you up a bit. ![:)](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/smiley.png)
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Post by My Senses Failed on Mar 11, 2004 3:15:02 GMT
;D i love you
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Post by hannah! on Mar 11, 2004 3:17:59 GMT
i know you do. i love you too, bri!
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Post by My Senses Failed on Mar 11, 2004 3:28:10 GMT
i know you do
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Post by RiaBaby on Mar 11, 2004 3:41:58 GMT
*tear* this is touching. but bri i just want you to know that any guy would be lucky as shit to have a girl like you.......you're beautiful even if you don't realize it, you're intelligent, you're not afraid to say what you feel, you're a fucking kickass writer and basically you're just one of a kind. so cheer up, tomorrow's a new day, you never know what could happen
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Post by My Senses Failed on Mar 11, 2004 3:51:23 GMT
*tear* oh my god ria...that was sooo completely amazing and i love you thank you thank you thank you......
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Post by RiaBaby on Mar 11, 2004 3:55:46 GMT
aww i love you too bri
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Post by ILovePirates55 on Mar 11, 2004 4:04:00 GMT
*tear* this is touching. but bri i just want you to know that any guy would be lucky as shit to have a girl like you.......you're beautiful even if you don't realize it, you're intelligent, you're not afraid to say what you feel, you're a fucking kickass writer and basically you're just one of a kind. so cheer up, tomorrow's a new day, you never know what could happen Awww you guy's are all so nice to each other lol
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Post by My Senses Failed on Mar 11, 2004 4:09:45 GMT
yeah...y'all are way too nice man...
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