Post by xxEmotionaLxx- <3 adele <3 on Aug 19, 2005 23:16:17 GMT
Just why!? Why should I care anymore, for your petty excuses, and your countless lies, and for my effort, and my countless tries. Its clear they’ve gone down the gutter, with every memory of me that passes you by, the way you victimise, the way you always seem to find my faults, how you treat me differently. I’ve given up caring about it, well at least I’m trying , cuz its hurting me, and you don’t know how much, when your breaking me, when you shout at me, and all the words seem fuelled with anger. Can't you just be ok with me? Just be nice to me, I’m your friend, not your enemy. I wanna get to know you even more, but you wont let me. What have I done to you to deserve this, this solitude, this coldness? What did I say, that made you treat me this way, and make me feel so hated, make me feel so unwanted? Why should I stay around anymore, and stay inside these lines you’ve drawn out for me? I’m sick of being there, when you aren’t there for me, sick of offering you my hand, and you either don’t take it, or pull me down and drag yourself up. I’m sick of this needing, needing what I cant have. I’m sick of this constant battle, why do I have to face it? Why do I have to be in the middle of everything? why do you load me with all these questions? Why do you look at me for answers? I don’t have them, I don’t know what to say to you, why do you expect some of my words to be able to clear things up for you, what is it, you want me to say the words you wanna hear. Well I don’t think ill be doing that any time soon, don’t depend on me to save you, when I cant even save myself. I don’t have the answers to these questions of my own, I don’t know what to say to myself, or to you let alone. I don’t know this world im living in that much at all, and I don’treally know you and I don’t even know myself…there’s things still left to learn, and things that we never will, that are beyond all we are and will ever be…
Ok so I wrote this about a friend of mine- alex, i like him so so muhc, and well lets just say he wont ever feel the same, thing is hes different than normal guys, hes weird with me. dont ask why, its too hard to explain, but i 'love' him...guess im just f*cked though...arent we all, everything ends in tears, and nothing lasst forever...
Ok so I wrote this about a friend of mine- alex, i like him so so muhc, and well lets just say he wont ever feel the same, thing is hes different than normal guys, hes weird with me. dont ask why, its too hard to explain, but i 'love' him...guess im just f*cked though...arent we all, everything ends in tears, and nothing lasst forever...
hehe xXx