A Day In The Life Of.. by Died*In*My*Dreams*~Chapt

[Kezzie]

*~Chapter 1~*

Dear Diary,
Today was the worst day of my life.I've alwayz stood up for my brothers, even though they're older then me.Today, it went too far.
Sophie is one of those cheerleading types.I never pickon anyone younger than me.She was. She was taller then me by about a foot.
I saw her by the science block,towering over them. she was calling them freaks and the usual lark.So i went up to her and kicked her ass. As usual.

I put my diary back in my bag, and left the toilets.i walked slowly as i knew that Amy would be waiting.I stepped outside. She grabbed me and pulled me behind school.She pulled a cigarrette out of her bag,put it in my mouth and lit it.

"Were even" She said, and walked off.

When i got home, Benji stood, pacing my room.When i entered, he totally freaked.

"SARAH!!!HOW COULD YOU!!!"

"What?"

"WHAT??WHAT? I'LL GIVE YOU WHAT!"

"Benj? Would you mind telling what you are on about?"

"I saw you smoking.Behind school. With Sophie."

"Not true. She forced me"

"Well.I'll believe you this time but; if i catch you doing anything you shouldn't-"

"You wont"

He stormed out, slamming the door behind him.

[Kezzie]

~*Chapter 2*~

I think it may be worth becoming an insomniac. Last night i didn't get any sleep at all. benj seems real pissed off. Thank god Joel doesn't know yet. He didn't see ab=nd Benj has kept it quiet. Not for long though. I think his patience is wearing thin,waithing for ME to tell him. well i won't. he cant make me.he'll just flip as Benji did then mom will find out and ill be in real deep shit.


I lay on my bed. I listen to benji and Joel having a row in their room. Oh god. was that my name.Bum.

"SARAH!!!"

shit

"I'm coming" i grumbled. I slid off my bed and walked to their room.

"What?"

"Whats this?" He pointed to my flannel.
I gasped.It was coverd in blood.He grabbed my arm and pulled my sleeve up.It was in a bandage.He gasped.

"Sarah?whaaa---"

"It's nothing.Honest"

"Sarah..."

"LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!"

'Blimey' Joel thought.

I stormed out, slamming the door behind me, just as Benji had in my room yesterday.My life is going to pieces here.
I realised I had left my flannel behind.Ahh,well, im not going back in there, they'd probaly imprison me or something.

I laid down on my front on my bed and began crying into my pillow.

In the morning, my pillow was soaked through with my tears,and my eyes were swollen like little mice.
'Well,i'm not going to school today then.'I thought to myself.I went downstairs to breakfast,then went back upstairs to my room.

[Kezzie]

~*Chapter 3*~

"Sarah?"

"Mmm?"

"Can i come in?"

"I guess"

Mom came in and perched on the end of my bed.

"can i have a look at your arm?"

"Which one? i have got 2"

"Left"

"No"

"Why?"

"cause i said so"

"fair enough"

"what?"

"you heard me"

"So you're not gonna get all shirty with me?"

"No"

"Ok"

"Fine"

"Bye"

She left my room.

Blimey.Has everyone switched places in this house? Josh,Benji and Joel used to be the understanding ones ond mom used to be the angry one.
I seriously feel like curling up in a corner and killing myself.I would, but I am too depressed.
I alwayz used to be laughing. Until dad left.

I chucked it into the corner of my room, and drifted off into a dreamless sleep- well, except one.

*Dream*

i heard footsteps behind me.I kept on running.I tripped.I tumbled. I fell.Down.THUD. I landed on the ground after dropping what must have been 50 foot.
Flkashig lights. Wailing sirens.I was being dragged onto an ambulance.

*Reality*

DAMN!!!
I was being dragged outa bed by- ouch. Maybe i should open my eyes. Thats better.

"C'mon Sarah- school- 15 mins"

"Make me"

"Alright-MOM!!"

"Ok im going already"

*5 mins later*

I ran outa the house and towards school. As i got there, the bell had rung and doors were closing all down the corridor.

"Screw that" I muttered, to no-one in particular.I turned around and came face to face with-

"Benji?"

"Wanna go for a walk?"

[Kezzie]

~*Chapter 4*~

I followed Benji to the park just down the road from school and we sat down on the swings.

"so"

"So what?"

"Whats with the whole arm thing?"

"Uhh..i was just really bummed out and wanted out with the pain."

"I see where you're coming from"

"No you don't. You'll never understand."

"Try me"

"Oki. Well, ever since Dad left last year my life has been complete shit so..." I carried on talking for about half an hour, Benji occaisionly sayin "Yea" or "Mmm".

"so what stopped you completely killing yourself thid time?"

"Well, I sorta heard you making up a song...and it made me realise how many people there are that care for me, even if dad doesn't"

"Mmm...Wanna go home?"

"Sure"

*Home*

"hello?" Benj called into the house, as the front door was slightly open.

"I don't like this..."

Benji walked into the house and found Dad layed down on the sofa, so he picked him up and chucked him out onto the street.

"that sorted that"

"whatever"

"Yea well, he's a dick..you know that..he can't just waltz back in here whenever he wants"

"yea" I walked up the stairs to my room.

[Kezzie]

~*Chapter 5*~

I spent the whole of saturday in my room listening to depressing music.Even though the talk with Benji helped me clear my head a bit,I was depressed as hell.Iwent downstairs but doubled back as I passed the living room.

"Josh?"

"Mmm?"

"Are you alright?"

"Nope."

"Why?"(a/n- i know thats a bit wierdly written but wtv)

"Mom"

"Mom?"

"She went to an Insititute"

"What?"

"You heard"

"Yea but..you will be able to look after us won't you?"

"Well, Benji and Joel will need to get jobs"

"Yea? and what the hell am i supposed to do?You lot'll be out earing money and I'll just be here and people will be like'so you're the lazy one,right'?"

"Sarah.You're too young"

"God.You're so bloody ageist"

"That's not a proper word"(a/n-it might be..i duno)

"I DON'T CARE"

"Jeez"

I ran out of the room,to the bathroom, closed the door behind me and sat down on the floor.
Benji must have heard me shut the door because he came shouting my name and banging on the bathroom door like a loony.

"Sarah!Get out here now"

"No"

I heard him running down the stairs, and then back up again. The door smashed to bits as Benji broke it with a sledgehammer.

"You'll have to buy a new door benj" I said quietly.

He reached down and helped me to my feet.

"BENJI!" Josh shouted from downstairs.

"Shit" he muttered as he left the room.

I was just about to go into my room when i heard a voice whisper "Sarah" as if the sound was carried on the wind.

"Sarah" It whispered again.

I looked around.No-one there.

"Look at the window"

I spun around.
Hanging from the window was a bloody,mangled corpse

It was Mom.

[Kezzie]

~*Chapter 6*~

I screamed.
i heard Joel coming towards me, so i stepped on top of the radiator, in front of the corpse.

"Sarah?why are you stood on the radiator?"

"Uhh...im trying to keep my feet warm"

"But the heatings not on"

"I knew that"

"Well get down then"

"No"

Joel lifted me up over his shoulders and stared open mouthed at the corpse hanging from the window.

"Can you put me down now?"

He put-more like dropped- me down.

"Mom?" he whispered, and reached out to touch it.
I grabbed his hand, and the wind caught the corpse, causing a piece of paper to flutter to the floor. i picked it up.

watch your back-both of you

I couldn't move. I heard a loud, high pitched giggle from behind me.

"Paralyzing poison. It enters the blood stream through the skin"

I could see Joels eyes darting around in their sockets.He was gagged.

A piece of sharply-nailed wood hit me over the head, and clours flashed before me as i tumbled down the stairs...

blue...purple....grey...black.....

[Kezzie]

~*Chapter 7*~

"Is she alive?"

"She's stable"

"S'up guys?"Another voice joined the origianal 2.

"Sarah"

"Oh"

The voices got nearer, then entered the room.I opened my eyes, and all i could see was white, green curtains, tubes and those little blood bag thingys.

"Who are you?" i asked

"Um..Benji,Josh and Robin"

"Yea, but who are you?"
They exchanged nervous glances.

"I'm yourmom, and Benji and Josh are your brothers"

"Oh"

"Well, you did have another but.."

"But what?"

"He..uhh...he..."

"WHAT!"

"D-d-died"

I remembered now.His eyes.The lsugh.The fall.The colours.

"Keep your voice down honey"

"S-sorry"

"It's okay"

"Who's that?"I asked as another boy, around benjis age, with blonde hair entered the room.

"Tony"Benji replied.

"Oh."

"A hello would be nice."

"Yea....Hi"

"Howz you feeling?"

"Well, if you'd been hit over the head with a plank of wood, how would you feel?"I felt like saying, instead I said:

"Nung"Don't bother asking. I don't know why i said that.I had a queasy feeling in my stomach.

"Benji,Josh, Tony- do you guys wanna come and get some food?"

"Nah thanx.I'll stay"Tony said, and Benji and Josh followed Robin out of the room.
Tony pulled his chair closer to my bed.

"Sarah?"

"Mmm..?"

"Look at me "

"Why?"

"I'm talking to you"

I turned my head.God, he has beautiful eyes.
His eyes locked on mine. A second later, his lips locked on mine.My heart was beating so fast, I thought it would come bursting out of my chest at any minute.
Suddenly, my machine started beeping rapidly.Doctors rushed in, shooing Tony out of the room. He looked at me, before exiting the room.

[Kezzie]

~*Chapter 8*~

'Finally I get to leave this hellhole' I thought as I got into moms car.

"Benj?"

"T'is me"

"Can I have Tonys' number?"

"Why?"

"None of your business"

"Here"He handed me a piece of paper with some numbers scribbled on it.

"Mom?"

"Yes Benjamin?"

"i thought you were in a institute."

"I was"

"Fair enough"

When i got home, i closed my door behind me and sat down on my bed as i dialed Tonys number.

"Hello?"

"Hey Tony"

"Sarah?"

"T'is me"

"wow..I mean..so your home?"

"Nope.I'm on a skiing expidition on mars.Of course i'm home"

"Great. Well, can i come over and see you?"

"see you soon"

"So thats a yes?"

"Yes"I hung up.

*5 mins later*

*knock knock*

"Can I come in?"

"Uh huh"
He opened my bedroom door, and closed it behind him.

"How are you?"

"Much better thanx"

"Good.Sarah, there's something I want to ask you..."

"Shoot"

"d'you...I mean...would you go out with me?"

"Uhh....um......okay"

He hugged me, then kissed me, so i kissed back.(a/n-duh)
Just then, Benji walked in.

"oh- i'm sorry- I hope i wasn't interrupting"

"No....yes"

Benji laughed.

"well, don't let me keep you."

"i gotta go.I promised mom i'd only be half an hour"

"Bye then"

"Bye" He kissed me.Again.

[Kezzie]

~*Chapter 9*~

I lay on my bed, my heart fluttering in my chest. ' Why do boys have to be so fucking good at kissing?' I asked myself. I decided to write a poem for Tony. I had know him almost all my life, and I've always felt different around him.

I'm lost in the see through
I think you lost yourself too.
Through out all ofthis confusion
I hope I somehow get to you
I practised all the things I'd say
To tell you how I feel
And when I finally get my chance
It all seems so surreal

I folded it up, and wrote 'Tony' on the front. On my way to Tony's house, the wind whipped the the note out of my hand.
"Shit" I muttered.
I turned my back and began walking home.
When I passed Benji and Joels room. I heard them singing, and Benj was playing the guitar. I stood in the howling wind listening . They were singing my poem, and added bits, they knew how I felt how I felt about Tony, and how long I have felt like it. And I have to say that every part of it was true. I went home and stood outside their bedroom door. I was about to knock on the door when Joel opened it.
'' I want copyright on that" I said.
"And copyright you shall have. It's a great poem"
"Song" I corrected him
"Whatever"
I began to walk towards my room when Benji poked his head past Joel and said
"Do you want us to deliver this to Tony?"
"If you want"

[Kezzie]

*~Chapter 10~*

"Ahem. We have a message to deliver" Benji said, as he dragged his guitar into Tony's bedroom.
"Who from?"
"Sarah"
"Go on then"
"Okay. Ahem...." Joel started singing. When he finished Tony had silent tears streaming down his face.
"Thanks guys" he croaked.
"No-probs. Is there a message you want to send back?"
"No. I'm coming over"

Sure enough, 5 mins later there was a soft knock at my bedroom door.
"Come in"
"Sarah. I need to talk to you"
"Close the door.What about?"
"Us"
"Us?"
"Yeh....Well... I know it's soon, but Mest have gotten more popular, so we're going on a mini tour and... I wanted to know if you wanted to come?"
"Uhh...I...I don't know...."
"Well it's not for a month yet, so you can think about it"
"I don't need to think. I will"
"Really? Will your mom mind?"
"She wont know...untill I've gone"
"Sarah. You can't just sneak out the front door withough anyone noticing"
"I'm not. I'm gunna climb out of my window"
"Fair enough. Are you gunna tell Benj and Josh?"
"No"
"Sarah-"
"Don't worry. I'll call him after I've gone okay?"
"Okay"
I jumped as i heard my door open. Benji walked in.
"I couldn't help overhearing."
"What?"
"Your going away on tour"
"What's it to you?"
"Well- Your gunna be away for your birthday."
"So?"
"Sao what I'm saying is that maybe you should leave it this time"
"No"
He tutted "You're so fucking stubborn Sarah"
"Yeh. I know where i get it from"
"Sarah-don't start."
"Why? That's where you always said you get your drinking problem from"
"Fuck off Sarah"
Tony gathered that they were talking about their dad.
"Maybe you both should leave it?" He said.
"Stay out of it Tony"
To me he said :
"Your blame dad for everything. Just because he left before you were a teenager. You're so fucking self-centered"
I stormed off into the bathroom
"Bad move man. Bad move"

[Kezzie]

~*Chapter 11*~

I can't beleive it. Benji told mom. I am now grounded, and banned from seeing Tony. All because of some lame tour. Tony left 6 weeks ago. Our last night together was- well, you could say interesting( A.N- you get the picture). For the last wee, I have been throwing up almost every morning. So today, I bunked school, and went to the doctors.
"Well Miss Madden, this may come as a shock, but- you are pregnant"
"Really?"
"Really really"
"Thanks. Bloody hell" I said, as i left the room.

*Home*

"Mom?"
"Mmm"
"Can I talk to you?"
"Yep" I looked at Josh.
"Erm... alone?" He left the room
"So.."
"I'm pregnant"
"Go out Sarah and find yourself a house."
"Mom- O'm only 13-"
"So?"
"Jeez" I said, and left the room. I went upstairs, packed my bags and left the house, slamming the door behind me.

[Kezzie]

~*Chapter 12*~

*4 years, 9 months later*

'Bring bring'
"Shit" I grumbled as i dragged myself off of the sofa , and hunted around for my phone.
"Hello?"
"Hey Sarah"
"Benj?"
"Yeh. D'you wanna come to the pub?"
"Uhh...I would, but there's no-one to look after Kathy"
"I thought you'd say that. That's why I asked Billy before hand"
"Okay. When's he coming over?"
"He should be there in around 10 mins. I'll be over to pick you up in 5, and we can wait until he gets there"
"Okay. Bye"
"Bye"

*10 mins later*

There was a knock at the door
"Hey Billy"
"Hey Sarah"
"Come in"
"Will do"
"Oi! Benj, we can go now!"
"Coming..."
"See ya later Billy"
"Yea, see ya"

*The Pub*

We walked up to the bar.
"What do you want?"
"Ummm.... Purple red square (a/n- it's sounds funny lmao)"
"Okay well [to the bartender] That'll be one purple and one green red square then please"
He got the drinks and sat down at a table.
" So.. How are you?"
"Um.. I'm..." I was about to say great, but i spotted a head of blonde hair at the bar.
"What?"
"Who's that- by the bar?" I think I knew the answer, but i wanted to be sure.
"I dunno" He got up and tapped the guy on the shoulder. He spun around. I saw the face and walked over.
"Holy fucking shit. Tony?"

[Kezzie]

*~Chapter 13~*

"Nice to see you too"
I turned to Benji.
"You knew he was gunnabe here didn't you? That's why you asked Billy to babysit"
He looked at his feet guiltily.
"You have a baby?"
"Duh"
"And...?"
"Um....It's her birthday today. She was 4"
"Wait...4? 9 monthes, 4 years...shit"
"Yes Tony"
"Yes what?"
"Tell me what you were gunna say, then I'll tell you"
" Is it mine?"
"She. Yes"
"Bloody hell"
"Whatever"
"I guess I'll be off then" said Benji
"Hold it right there mister. We're all going back to my house to discuss this"
"Ok"

*Home*

"Nice pad" Tony said as we went in
"Thanks. BILLY- We're back!"
"HI!" he yelled back. " do you mind not being so fucking loud i've just got Kathy to sleep"
"You can talk" I yelled back.
"Benji-Tony-Kitchen-Now"I said.
They followed obidiently.
"I still don't get what this has to do with me" Benji said.
"That's because your an ignorant pig Benj" Tony said
"Thanks for that"
"No probs"
Just then Kathy wondered in.
"Mommy who's that?" she said, pointing at Tony.
"That's erm.... that's your dad honey"
"Oh. What's his name?"
"Tony"
"Oh. Night night"
"Goodnight sweetie"
"So Tony what have you been up to for the last few years?"
"Nothing"
"What- so you've just been sat in one spot for 4 years"
"No"
"Then what?"
"Um...Looking for you"
"Why?"
"Um... To see you again?"

We carried on like this for about 4 hours. Anyway, the gist and nub of it is that we are going to take things steady and see if it works out. He reckons us meeting in the pub was a coincidence. I say it was Benji's luck at me coming. Oh how we laughed. Not.

[Kezzie]

*~Chapter 14~*

"momeeeee! wake up !"
"Whaa? what time is it ?"
"5:30"
I rolled over and went back to sleep.
"momeeee! Where's daddy?"
"out"
"where?"
"I dunno"
"Why?" god this kid asks too many questions.
"I dunno Kathy. Go back to bed"
"No. i need pee-pee"
"Go then"
"no"
"why?"
"cos there's a mad man in there"
I got out of bed and opened the bathroom door.
"No mad man - go"
"But he's in the shower"
i looked around the shower curtain for a second. Shit i thought.
"Go into your room so i can shut this door"
I closed the door, and piled 3 chairs and a desk in front of it. "that should hold it" i thought.
i rang Benji.

"hello?"
"hey Benj"
"Sarah-hey"
"whatever.have you seen Tony"
"yeh, i killed him"
"whatever Benj"
"it's true "
"well, why are you so fucking happy?"
"cos i beat him" jeez. i know where this is going.
"ah what"
"a game" told you.
"good for you. is he there?"
"yep, he handed the phone over.
"tony?"
"sarah?"
"yep"
"what's the matter?"
"ummm... there's a loony in the shower"
"Be right there"

*20 mins later*

Tony peered around the bathroom door. He went in.
"tony don't go in th..." he closed the door behind him.

Something slammed against the door. Glass broke. one punched the other. sinlence. i opened the door. blood was splattered everywhere, tony was slumped against the wall and the curtains were moving in the wind where the window was open.

[Kezzie]

*~Chapter 15~*

i put my hand to my mouth and ran out of the room. i paced the living room, jumping when i heard the phone ring.
"hello?"
"sarah it's benji. where's tony ?"
"uhh.... come over... no wait.. um..meet me at the hospital. i'll explain there" i hung up and dialed an ambulance

*10 mins later*

me and benji sat in the quiet waiting room. i was pale and felt sick. i stared at the floor. "if i hadnt have made him come over, he'd never be here" i thought. A nurse entered the room, i looked up at her, and nudged benji in the side. he gave me the evils, but he looked at the nurse.
" i'm afraid Mr Lavato has suffered several blows to the head, whick could be fatal. he is in a stable condition, so you may visit him,although any sudden movements may cause a heartattack"

She showed us to his room, and when i saw all of the tubes etc that were connected to his room, i shook my head and ran out of the hospital to my car. I got in and began driving around. i had no idea where i was going, i just had to get away from there. i stopped ouside a house. a house i hadn't seen for 4 years. i got out of the car and walked up the driveway. i knocked on the door. josh opened it. "bllody hell" i thought "he's 22 and still living here."
"Can i help you?" he said, ' he doesnt even rocognise his own sister- no wait- if i looked at a picture of me then, i wouldn't recognise myself. then, i had blonde hair, no tatoos or piercings. now, i have black hair with blue streaks, my lip and eyebrow pierced and a cross tatooed on my shoulder/arm' i thought .
"um.. yeh. i used to live here"
"no tramps ever lived here"
"well, this one has. my name's Sarah"
" oh, yeh, the one who got pregnant at 12" he said, then shut the door in my face.