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Post by RAWR i'm a cow on Dec 13, 2005 13:07:34 GMT
heyyy i like it! its funnn. write more<3
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Post by lipservice on Dec 13, 2005 15:08:48 GMT
CHAPTER 5
I ran. He ran after. He grabbed my hand and spun me around.
"I'm sorry"
This was all like a routine, it was so used.
"Go get you're clothes" I said to him, like I felt nothing.
He looked down, I could tell he regretted it. I looked over to the bathroom door, Johanna was crying.
"I didn't mean to" He looked in my eyes, his brown beautiful eyes was soaked with tears just waiting to run down his face.
"No, you did. you just didn't mean that I should find out" still talking like I had no feelings, my feelings was too busy telling me how stupid I was. I tore my hand away from his and started going down the stairs toward the exit. He had a show to play, so he couldn't run after. And he didn't. Not Johanna either,she was supposed to be my best friend. I finally broke down in the cap, going back to the hotel, this was real love ripped away, it was like spending time in heaven, with angels, and then being thrown back to earth. The worst feeling ever. Such a struggle because someone else's actions. I got back to the hotel, tossed myself on the bed. I had stopped crying. thinking about revenge, and oh how sweet the revenge was going to be.
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~Benji's POV~ "Benjamin.
The one day I first saw you was the day I realized what living was about. You made me be, just like a drug. I was always just when I was with you.
When you read this I will not be anymore. I'm not your's. I will belong to God. You see, like Hamlet I have to choose between life and death. I am choosing death. Forgive me for bringing our child with me.
I loved you"
Her could dead body lay across the floor. I sat with her, wiping all the blood off her wrist's. The ambulance came now, they were standing outside the hotel. I grabbed her back and head and held her close to me one last time before they took her away. kissed her forehead.
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Post by lipservice on Dec 14, 2005 20:01:52 GMT
CHAPTER 6
I jumped up. The feeling of my insides bursting trough my skin made me lay down again.
"Where am I" I sad silently to myself. as lights got turned on, and I could see I was at the hospital, and he came through the door toward me.
"They fixed you" He said placing a cop of tea on my bed.
"You never told me we were having a baby" he said smiling at me, like he was really happy with me.
"We're not.. It's dead now" I said screaming the word 'dead' in his face
"No, he's not!" he was now looking at me like i was Christmas morning
"Well, you are nothing to me anymore" I said silently turning away from him, but still being stuck to the bed
"please take me back" He said with tears running down his cheeks
"I'm afraid.. no" at this point I burster out in tears too
"Look at me" He said deadly serious So I looked. He pulled out a ring, with a huge diamond on it.
"Please, let me marry you, I love you" I gasped.
"I cant BELIEVE you have the nerve! Look Benji, Look at me, I'm sick in the head, I just tried to kill myself, you don't want me, you want my kid" I screamed out in despair
"Anything wrong with wanting to see my kid every once in a while, I'll take care of you and him" He screamed back
"I'll never marry you, now go back and fuck my best friend" I yelled at him as loud as I could, he got up and walked over to the door.
"You aren't even good in bed, Benj. Fuck you"
CHAPTER 7
It had been moths, I was 6 weeks from having my baby. I hadn't heard from Benji or Johanna since that night. Although Benji had been in some trouble with the magazines and so, they was on to the news of him having a baby, they didn't know about me though, it at least didn't seem so. Benji had of course said to everyone that having a wife and kids at this point of his life was not an option. He was too into his career, that I could respect. His band was soon realizing a new album and all, highly expected. This was going to be their third album, and I was proud of Benji, don't get me wrong. But I think I missed him, carrying our child and all. But it was too late to kiss and make up now.
"I'll just go down and look here" Me and my big sister Nichole was shopping for baby clothes for Nathan, the store was closed, but my sis worked there, and used her key to get us in
"You do that, I'll stay here"
pain, hell all the pain, and driving in a car so fast, you'd that'd be more dangerous.
I arrived. Back, where the second hell took place. My feelings again didn't tell me anything, except all the pain. I woke up.
"I'm sorry miss, the hit made you loose your baby"
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Post by sUiCiDe_iS_PaInLeSs! on Dec 16, 2005 3:00:03 GMT
awww thats sad plz put some more on there
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Post by lipservice on Dec 19, 2005 0:05:55 GMT
Oh, I will ;D See, I have no life But did you get why she lost her baby?
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Post by Miss Victora on Dec 19, 2005 22:45:26 GMT
I'm sorry but I'm not gonna be able to get more in as fast as I though, but I will try my bestest to get it in before..too long ;D
Please tell me, post it or beep me if you have any idea how she lost her baby
Marry Christmas to yall if I dont speak to you before that <3
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Post by Miss Victoria on Dec 20, 2005 0:21:45 GMT
I'm sorry but I'm not gonna be able to get more in as fast as I though, but I will try my bestest to get it in before..too long Please tell me, post it or beep me if you have any idea how she lost her baby, because I haven't decided jet Marry Christmas to yall if I dont speak to you before that <3
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Post by x_Weird at Heart_x on Dec 21, 2005 17:03:18 GMT
oh i have an idea how she lost her baby her friend could have got jelous that benji still loved her so when she went back to see him her friend attacked he and made her fall down something and would cause dammage i amaze myself some times:P
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Post by lipservice on Jan 2, 2006 18:40:20 GMT
Ohh.. Nice! It's good! ..But, I'm sorry I think I have it.. how and why... BWAHAH.. I'm screwed.. anywaaay.. can any of you please PLEASE message me, so I can tell yah about it.. because I need to know if it's any good.. See.. i dreamed about it, so it might be..stupid.. I'll appreciate it ;D Happy New year to you guys!!! Hope this one will bring all sorts of good times. Love yah<3
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Post by lipservice on Jan 4, 2006 13:41:24 GMT
I think I'll be posting more today, but I still dont know if it's a good idea... Think I'll just drop it..
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Post by lipservice on Jan 4, 2006 18:50:49 GMT
CHAPTER 8
My whole body was being emptied, it was just me again, and the pain started coming from losing something that was not even mine to loose jet.
"Victoria!!!" She shook me awake. My sister who was always there when I needed her. I started crying and she hugged me
"It's gonna be okay, I promise you, even though things aren't going the way you want now, it will get better, I'll get my job back, and we could move to a house, where you and I can bring this little sucker up" she said smiling I quickly noticed I was in my bedroom, in my sisters apartment. I grabbed my stomach. The baby was kicking
"It hurts" I said giving Nichole a smile
"Yeah, oh.. I'll call the ambulance, I cant believe you're water broke.. I cant believe you're having the baby, like, now" There was a few seconds with silence "I'll get the phone, you... just stay there"
After a while the ambulance came, it rushed us to the hospital. We got there and Nichole left me to try getting Benji to come see his child, while they placed me in a big room, all alone. Everything was white, I'd never got why it was white, they should take a more pleasant color. All the whit was scary, I looked up and all the machines that was attached to me made me remember how dangerous this was, and how much was at stake.My mother had died when I was 7 years because she was giving birth, the baby had died too.
"Oh, please Lord, dont take my baby away" I said silently to myself. a stream of tears ran down my face, all the pain might have something to do with it.I opened my eyes, drayed my cheeks on the pillow, and looked over to the window. For a moment I smiled like I used to, I remembered, but I didn't want to, not now. He came in, and sat down by the chair by my bedside.
"Can I give you a hug?" he asked I nodded, not wanting him to hear my shacking voice. He got up, took a step, and bended over me and pulled me in, it was the best thing I had ever felt.
"You look as beautiful as ever, I love you honey" He looked down at me whit his brown delicious eyes
"I'm pregnant" I said "I'm pregnant, and It's your child"
He laughed, but he got the fact that i was serious, I had never told him before, except in my letter, and I really didn't wanna think about anything about that anymore he hugged me again
"That's great! I cant wait! I love him already" Benji said kissing my nose.
I'm sorry, but that's all I have time for now :/ I'll try and get more in..soon..
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Post by Victoria on Jan 7, 2006 9:54:03 GMT
oh i have an idea how she lost her baby her friend could have got jelous that benji still loved her so when she went back to see him her friend attacked he and made her fall down something and would cause dammage i amaze myself some times:P I used some of it thou, i was gonna Bake benji marry Johanna, and soone should die, but i guess not now ;D
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Post by omg me again on Jan 7, 2006 9:57:38 GMT
I meant MAKE not bake! lol I dont amaze myself, you're lucky
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Post by lipservice on Jan 19, 2006 14:26:42 GMT
..I want some coments before i make some more to yah.. to know tht you are actually reading it. So, if you please..
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Post by Lil' on Jan 31, 2006 0:16:40 GMT
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! I don't wanna Vic to be with Benji!!! He was an asshole with her. Maybe she can fall in love with Joel or Billy or Paul, I dunno, but with someone...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand Benji can marry Johanna...nah, that's bullshit, I'm bad at writing, you read my fan fic, I'm not very good... well I like it very much, ther's a lot of blood, yummmmmmmi!!! Hum...that's all, make everybody to read my FF, please, nobody reads it. Well, I better go...(shame of you, Benji)
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